Its so tempting to go back to escorting–but I am in a throughly monogamous relationship–well not really. My partner is of a certain age, as they say in France and thus worried about my chances of me getting pregnant. I tell him, ” Look, I have HAD experience….TRUST me….” He dosn’t know JUST how much experience we are talking about, but he insists that he has to go under the knife and fix himself just to make sure, and then there the thing that he’s a little shakey about going under the knife ( I guess I can understand, I wouldn’t want to be cut–down there).
So no sex. No sex. After everything that I have been through. No sex. Ok, so we do other things. We get to third base. You’d think I would leave him? You’d think that wouldn’t you. I guess that whats holding me back is love–I love the guy more then he deserves.
So I have been thinking, what would happen if I went back to escorting? Just once. One appointment.
It surprises me sometimes that I was an escort as well. How did I do it? How did I sleep with that many guys, most of which I was not attracted to? Sometimes, I even get an icky feeling thinking about it. Could I ever do it again after thinking back?
I doubt it.
So now I have my big girl relationship and my big girl job, I work in a normal business where I don’t have to worry about operating illegally.
Still there is always temptation.
